God is with us no matter how bad things can get

It was a long night yesterday. Bad news followed one after the other. I could not imagine how things would get better and in my frustration I said something hurtful to Angie. We did not speak much until this morning after I apologised. I guess we both had our way of dealing with the news and it did not help in assuring one another.

We had a chat with the mortgage broker last evening and we were told that we would not be able to get a loan from any bank or lender until we have completed 6 months at our jobs. It meant that we would only be able to get our own home after August this year. In addition, since my scholarship is till the end of this year, I need to get an endorsement from my Professor at UWA that I will be offered the scholarship for the 3 years PhD program, to provide proof to the banks that I will be getting some form of income at least for the next 3 years. As such we would have to continue boarding here at Leeming till at least September or October, maybe even November or December.

I felt we could handle this disappointment but when I went our to pass Auntie Ann the board fees for this week, she mentioned to me that her niece might be coming to stay with her. She would occupy the place we are presently staying in. However she assured me that she would keep her word to allow us to stay till the end of May. I was so tempted to ask her for an extension but felt that it was not a good time since she had guests over and was busy preparing dinner.

Suddenly in one night, we were faced with the prospect of having nowhere to stay and unable to get a home of our own. "Is this really happening to us?" I thought to myself. "I'm sure God will provide and we would be able to find another place to stay or by some miracle, Auntie Ann's niece would no longer be staying with her..." "But with rentals going up, will we be able to afford to rent another place?" Those thoughts were racing through my head and when my brain could not contain it any more, I had to surrender it all to God.

This morning as I was at mass, meditating on the sorrowful mysteries, I wondered to myself as I went from the agony in the garden to the scourging at the pilar to the crowning with thorns to the carrying of the cross to the crucifixon of Christ, "Are we currently experiencing the passion of Christ in our lives?" It certainly felt like it to me. The news from the mortgage broker seemed like Christ's agony in the garden where we had to face the prospect of something we do not want to experience. The news from Auntie Ann felt like scourging where each word cut deep into our already wounded hearts. The stark reality that we might have nowhere to stay come June parallels the pain that came with the weight of the thorns on our heads. The realisation that this is indeed happening to us certainly felt like the world was crucifying us.

At the end of my prayer, I felt that though these things were happening to us, God is with us as He is with Christ at his passion. We need to hope in His resurrection and like Him God will raise us up from our situation and we will be transformed.

I pray that we will trust in God who always provides. Do keep us in your prayers dear friends and may the peace of God reign in your lives as you deal with your own problems and tribulations.